My day 10.

Few wonderful successes, few constant struggle.

Mastery of the mind,

You would think its rather about knowledge, but rather about holding and maintaining my consiousness and conversations in my head. Ive had 3 sticks of cigarretes for the last two days. (All three today of course). So, i was comtemplating i should have one more stick before head off to my routine stopover at macdonalds. About 10 mins ago, before i had that conversation, i had told myself that since i dont have the craving, i shall not touch one untill friday (when my withdrawals may kick in). Clearly i forgotten about that conversation!!. And it was not a craving...it was a what i would call it, a retreat of a worse kind. It just lacked characther of myself. A battle between me and my mind. So anyway, as a form of motivation to get out of this trap i have in my head, i decided to run....(jog)

Mastery of the body,

My muscles are tight...not fit tight...tired..its need to reenergise. I need to stretch my body, it has to rest.... My ass is bloody compressed, my groin feels like its recovering from a year of pinching, and my neck is...well, i feel like it isnt a neck anymore. I cant move to the right.

So i ran...i had a jog, and what do you know, i almost had a hamstring pull...hahah. I think ive pushed to a limit, and its time i should listen to my body. This has been a week of struggle of the body and mind. ....

I appreciate you guys for the messages you sent to me. Thank you, they were truly inspiring.


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Chan Liang, - I trust you to somehow keep on going. :D

Love you all