Hey Guys,

My sincerest apologies to both of you.

I am reading your blogs, and i am both inspired and amazed at your journey. Thank you again for the reminder.

I have been absolutely sick for the past two days. I stayed away from the phone, internet, everything. Slight tinge of regret, i do not have that. In fact, i feel so recharge, just being alone, with my thoughts. If there is anything to go by, i was aware of how much i was running away. Not just from the socialising element, but from current events.

When i started picking up the papers again, when i was reading the blogs, i feelings and thoughts were raw, frustrated, mad.

I took the time away, to do what i really really wanted. That is to be with myself, productively. Think about the events, Karma as you would call it, sometimes and im realising how rubbish it is. To take precedence over life, over issues, to even give 2 cents about it, doesnt really serve a genuine purpose.

Today, ive found spunk and energy, my highs are really high, i can climb the walls (free running + samurai).

The realisatio i gather, from all of the facts and postings, gathered from dennet, chan liang, and myself, shouldnt bear a burden, a sorrow so painful till it hurts...it shouldnt...much rather, an opportunity to make a real significant purpose, and seeing the fruits of it. (Dennet, remember about tracking your progress, when planting a tree, for example), the inherent purpose isnt to make whats horrible, right, but to live, to dream and execute what we have all always wanted.

The fact just proves a point, that theres alot of work to be done. As religious as i sound, its time to get excited about it. Sorrow and anger, is not what we need right now, its not something we want to inculcate in others right now...why, people out there are living it!! embracing this sorrow, and see what happens half the time!?

I dont know if i am making sense here, throw me a towel, if i really need a spanking here. I love you all.

Kelveen