Trust my body to react to my new journey of exploring purification, i am down with the flu. How the individual consciousness tries to sabotage real change, don't you find it difficult every time you try to make a significant shifts in your life. Stopping smoking, routine exercise, studying and the like, always seem so difficult to start, and when you have a resolve to begin, something comes up, to wrestle you off your path. Agreed?

It is like your whole world conspires to stop you from moving by placing a thick concrete and steel wall in your way and points it's finger and laughs. But this is all good, cause it is your test of virtue, your test of courage and focus, to see if you really want to make that jump, to transcend all that is holding you back, one has to find away to jump over the wall. I remember a quote from my favorite warrior teacher, Carlos Castaneda .

"Warriors do not win victories by beating their heads against walls, but by overtaking the walls. Warriors jump over walls; they don't demolish them"


So when i read both your post, ChangLiang and Kelveen, i relate and i feel the struggle, the feeling of being chained and the anger that dwells within my shadow when i read about the atrocities of selfish men. I feel you guys.

But think about this, if the struggle to improve oneself is already so abundant with pitfalls and walls, think about what the collective conscious will present itself when we really start going against the status quo? This journey isn't an easy one, and you are right ChangLiang, there is no end in sight - no inherent goal to be achieved. It is a fight that will not be realized in this lifetime, however, i believe what we do, sets the precedent for the next batch and the next, like the ripples on a pond caused when you throw a pebble in it.

My studies have brought me to this juncture, every society, every culture, every advancement be it enlightenment or technology has always and will always be an "emergent" one. (Definition of Emergent - Wiki) So take heart my journeymen, use that anger, filled up your heart with that claustrophobia and use that energy which society labels as wrong to create love, to fill this world with peace and to bring light to the unawaken, to the scared and to the dis-empowered. Embrace the sickness so that we can heal it...

I for one am healing this flu.....

Love,
The pebble