When there is no observer who is suffering, is the suffering different from you? 


You are the suffering, are you not?  

You are not apart from the pain – you are the pain.  

What happens?  

There is no labeling, there is no giving it a name and thereby brushing it aside – you are merely that pain, that feeling, that sense of agony.  

When you are that, what happens?  

When you do not name it, when there is no fear with regard to it, is the center related to it?  

If the center is related to it, then it is afraid of it. Then it must act and do something about it. But if the center is that, then what do you do? 

There is nothing to be done is there? 

If you are that and you are not accepting it, not labeling it, not pushing it aside - if you are that thing, what happens?  

Do you say you suffer then?  
Surely, a fundamental transformation has taken place. Then there is no longer “I suffer” because there is no center to suffer, and the center suffers because we have never examined what the center is. We just live from word to word, from reaction to reaction.  
~ Jiddu Krishnamurti  

This journey of rigorous self-examination has brought me to question "suffering". Cause i have began to notice the massive amount of suffering from all the people close to me. Self-induced or not is not the point here. All the "i don't have enough money, i need more sales, i have to justify abortion, i spend too much time at work, i have lousy clients, i have my heart broken and the list goes on...  

and i question my own suffering, like my insane schedule, my forays with women, my choatic emotions and my lack of physical discipline. 

But at this stage i don't relate to any of it. I smile and know that i am relinquishing my idea of who i am, my "self", the "I" is dissipating daily. The longer and harder i peer into my abssy and see my divinity, the more detach i become from this sickness, this loathing of circumstance. My faith takes over, knowing i will die and that this life is far more mysterious than my current consciousness can hold - everything ceases.  

T'is strange this experience i now dwell. The daily meditation, the physical centering, the journaling and the constant self-examination is far reaching. I am beginning to accept, to understand and to be in the "tao"  

For those in this journey, this pathway... you know what i am talking about. 

I am an initiate.
I am finding my feet.